The 5 stages of grief

1. Denial and Isolation.
At first, we tend to deny the loss has taken place, and may withdraw from our usual social contacts. This stage may last a few moments, or longer.
2. Anger.
The grieving person may then be furious at the person who inflicted the hurt (even if she's dead), or at the world, for letting it happen. He may be angry with himself for letting the event take place, even if, realistically, nothing could have stopped it.
3. Bargaining.
Now the grieving person may make bargains with God, asking, "If I do this, will you take away the loss?"
4. Depression.
The person feels numb, although anger and sadness may remain underneath.
5. Acceptance.
This is when the anger, sadness and mourning have tapered off. The person simply accepts the reality of the loss.


Let's see. I won't do 3, because I know it doesn't work that way. What seems to be happening, is an oscillation between 2, 4 and 5. Or maybe I'm stuck at 4, with occasionally bursts of 2. And 2 is dangerous in this case, because I tend to think and do things which I normally wouldn't. Like shoot my mouth off, for instance.

I think its pretty evident that I'm at 2 now anyway, because I'm starting to feel an unreasonable hatred for montreal and mcgill and everything else associated with the ex. Especially montreal. And I'm starting to agree with cons that violence is a good way to solve things.

When my grandma died I slipped right into 5.

Oh wow I'm doing my own psychoanalysis.

It will all come to pass =)